A Life of Love

This is a poem I wrote when I was single about what I wanted to find when I finally fell in love for real. I didn’t write it because I read ‘The Secret’ and wanted my positive thoughts to create it. I also didn’t write it out of loneliness. I wrote it because it was in my heart.
I don’t think I realized that at the time, most of my best poems have been written without even trying. Like my subconscious sorted them out beforehand and just pushed them to the forefront of my mind to be put on paper. Regardless of how it came to be, I am a lucky woman because it came true and I was able to read this to my amazing husband on our wedding day. I hope you enjoy it.

A Life of Love

I don’t want you to love me, in spite of what I’ve done
I want you to take my face in your hands, look me in the eye
And tell me that the past is just that and we will continue to live in the moment

I don’t want you to love me because I’m beautiful
There is nothing more beautiful than the sight of love
I want to be beautiful because you love me, all of me.

I don’t want you to love me because of the things I do for you
Recognize that everything I do is because I care
I want you to know that I do it all because I love you, all of you.

I don’t want you to love me because it’s easy
Life is not fair, simple or easy and at times it will be hard to find reason to love
I want you to know that we will get through it together for true love needs no reason.

I don’t want you to love me with restraint
Love has no rules, no need for moderation, and no limits
I want you to abandon all your inhibitions and love me with everything you have to give.

I don’t want love to be just a word spoken between us
Love is more than just a word; it can change, nurture and protect us
And I need you to know, that I want nothing more, than to live this life of love with you

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Homemade Granola – What Heaven must smell like

This year has been the start of an amazing journey of self-improvement and discovery for me. Not only have I been finding ways to improve my inner self but also ways to live an overall healthier lifestyle. I discovered this book at the start of my journey:

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It has been a huge help in my quest to make the majority of what we eat from scratch. Alana, the book’s author is incredibly talented and the book is still one of my favourite purchases. I read her blog ‘From the ground up’ often and I find it to be a great source of good recipes with easy to follow instructions. Here is a link to her website if you would like to take a look.

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Yesterday I made granola! I love, love, love the aroma that it creates in the house while its baking and it’s easy to make. I changed the recipe in the above book to suit our household needs. As there are only two of us, I don’t need to start off the recipe with 10 cups of oats! So here is my process and I will post my altered recipe below. Enjoy!

Here are the assembled ingredients:

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And here is what it looks like going into the oven:

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The finished product:

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The Recipe

Ingredients

5 cups of old fashioned rolled oats

1/2 cup sesame seeds

1/2 cup sunflower seeds

1 cup raw sliced almonds

1/2 cup unsweetened shredded coconut

1/4 teaspoon salt

2 teaspoons ground cinnamon

1/4 cup canola oil

1/2 cup maple syrup

2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract

1/2 teaspoon almond extract

Instructions

Preheat oven to 250F

Mix all dry ingredients, then add wet. Mix throughly.

Spread evenly on a lined baking sheet.

Bake for 1-1/2 hours stirring every 1/2 hour.

At the end of the baking time turn oven off and leave in oven for minimum 6 hours or overnight.

Voila Granola!

And we shall finish this post with a picture of Bennie the Beagle:

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My quest for the perfect loaf

A couple of years ago I got the urge to start creating more things. I’m not particularly artistic so I ended up utilizing my creativity in the kitchen. I started canning, cooking new ethnic foods, making more things homemade and baking bread. Bread has been tricky for me, I have yet to perfect my recipe but I have really enjoyed the smells, textures and techniques in my quest for the perfect loaf.

This book has been a huge help getting started and is not only a wonderful resource for recipes and information it tells a beautiful story too.

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Not all of my attempts have been successful, but some of them have turned out surprisingly well.

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I may not be able to paint a beautiful picture, or sing a beautiful song but sometimes when the stars are perfectly aligned, I can create a beautiful loaf of bread and that is something that always makes me happy.

Does it really get better?

I’m writing today about something that I am very passionate about and that has affected me personally, almost my whole life. Bullying.  You see, I read an article written by a Mother who thinks that bullying is a normal thing for children to go through, that it helps you to learn how to pick yourself up and work through problems.  She is under the impression that today’s youth are too pampered and unable to cope with the stresses of daily life, and apparently bullying will help them to toughen up and become functional members of society.  I can see her point of view, and I completely disagree with it.

Let’s go back twenty years to 1994.  I was 10 years old and had been in school for six years.  I was bullied everyday, for those six years.  Now think about yourself, what do you think it would do to you to have someone with you eight hours of the day challenging your self worth, telling you that you aren’t good enough, that you don’t have any value in this world.  I imagine it would change you, that those people’s words would stay with you.  That no matter how successful you become, or how much you change physically, there would always be that mean girl inside of you, telling you that you just aren’t good enough.

You may look at me today and think that I turned out ok, that it couldn’t have been that bad if I’m doing so well now.  Let me assure you that I am far from ok.  I’ve spent everyday since escaping school trying to pick up all the broken pieces that those bullies created.  I’ve fought with myself constantly, trying to quiet those voices that tell me I’m not good enough and I don’t have value.  I have fallen apart countless times and with the help of my family and friends slowly but surely I have become almost whole again.

I remember my Mom telling me that it will get better, that you won’t be bullied forever, that this will end.  Well it does get better, and I don’t get bullied now but I can assure you, it doesn’t ever really end.  I am still fighting through the damage from the abuse of my bullies, everyday it gets easier but it’s something that should never have to happen.

I always felt like something was fundamentally wrong with me, and that was the reason that I was singled out and bullied so brutally.  I now know, that there is absolutely nothing ‘wrong’ with me.  I am exactly the way I am meant to be; but there are times I can’t help but think, would I be just a little braver, or stronger, or a little more trusting if those bullies never had a voice in my life?

 

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My first blog post <3

I have been struggling, not only on what to write my first blog post about but if I should even bother writing a blog.  It seems as though everyone has a blog now a days and I have to admit I don’t enjoy the huge amount of misinformation included in them.  It was also difficult picking a topic, you see when you google blogging apparently you should stick to one niche, for example baking, photography or puppies.  Never having been a stickler for the rules, I have decided to go against the grain and be topic-less! My blog will simply be about what makes me happy, written with kindness in mind, the things I enjoy doing and most likely an excessive amount of photos of my puppy.  I do hope you enjoy my writings about my beautifully imperfect life.

Here is one of many aforementioned puppy pictures.

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